Two for Two

Another crap night for sleep. Damn. I sleep hard for 90 minutes then up for 3 hours then catnap till I get up. It totally sucks. The cycle is new enough where I don't feel exhausted but that will come with continued disruption.

What do I think about? Everything and nothing. An odd statement yes. Some constant worries and some issues that I have buried just below the surface for months. Thats the problems with shallow graves isn't it? They just don't get the job done. I guess I have the blues and thats ok. At least there is a great soundtrack to go along with it.

As I stand by your flame
I get burned once again
Feelin' low down, I'm blue
As I sit by the fire
Of your warm desire
I've got the blues for you, yeah
Every night you've been away
I've sat down and I have prayed
That you're safe in the arms of a guy
Who will bring you alive
Won't drag you down with abuse
In the silk sheet of time
I will find peace of mind
Love is a bed full of blues
And I've got the blues for you
And I've got the blues for you
And I'll bust my brains out for you
And I'll tear my hair out
I'm gonna tear my hair out just for you
If you don't believe what I'm singing
At three o'clock in the morning, babe, well
I'm singing my song for you

Elusive sleep

I don't know what it is. Some nights sleep just eludes me. RL just will not let go. The mind races over this and that detail. The the audio senses kick in and you hear things. Not fearful things but doors clicking, etc. Got some sleepwalkers so that always bears a check.

The dream life being revved up seems to coincide with all of this. I have symbolic dreams, memory lane dreams, fantasy dreams. I even had a dream this evening about blogging. LOL

Am I stressed out about something? Naw, no more than usual. Starts of school years are stressful on a family level but professionally this is #15. I'm comfortable in that. Having Kimala away in RL tends to predominate my thoughts. I know she is a big girl, totally able to take care of herself but I can't hug her or kiss her and feel her closeness to me. Hell, I even miss the look that says with no words, "You know I love you but you are an idiot right now."

Ok, so I have blogged. Did that. Now I've got to do the HW that I nicely avoided yesterday evening. The Five Themes of Geography. If that doesn't put me back to sleep nothing will. JK. God help me but I do love History!

I'll have to confer with Bliss regarding this insomnia. Seems like NYC would be more fun to have insomnia in than Phoenix. Here I'll write notes, there....maybe go shopping? Have a wonderful day everyone.